My weight was the first factor of the downward slide of my week because it was in an upward slide despite my tremendous efforts at eating correctly - despite my almost manic efforts at exercising - every day - for at least an hour - either working with a personal trainer or following the exercise plan of the MKC - despite the best intentions of making everything count. But it didn't - the scales were up and in some cases my measurements were up to - how does that work I ask with tears in my eyes because that is the stage that I am now at. How can I be doing everything so right and it turning out so wrong ?
Then A left for Coffs - which in itself I can handle - but on top of dealing with the stupid weight loss (or lack of) issue and my Dad's prognosis - I really wish he could have been at home this week. I need him more than I normally do because, as a rule, I am a big girl who can stay at home by myself without having to have someone stay with me - but this week is different. This week I feel like I need him at home - and he isn't.
Tomorrow we have our monthly board meeting - and I think it is going to be a doozy. I think there is going to be lots happening - and not all of it will be pleasant - in fact, I would put money that most of it is going to be unpleasant. I don't do confrontation well - not at all. I would rather walk out of room that be involved in a confrontation - even if it doesn't involve me. I anticipate a fair bit of confrontation tomorrow - so much so I am thinking of not going to the board meeting. But then they may cancel it because there will be no presentation of the financials and then I will only have prolonged the agony. Maybe I will go and get it over and done with.
On Thursday I have to go to the skin clinic to get checked. It has been about 4 or 5 years since I last went - I am very naughty I know and given my Dad's situation, I have promised myself not to let it go this long between check-ups.
And then it will be Friday - the last day of the working week - with the possibility of A being home - or not - depending on how the sites are going. The day of the week when I am in the office with only one director. the day that either drags or flies by. But it is good, no matter how it passes - because it means that one sleep from then it is the weekend !
TFTD : Love comes in all shapes and sizes and people who share it are very lucky. They have a little halo around them - Meryl Streep