Well, those 9 days passed in the blink of an eye. OK - maybe not quite the blink of an eye but it certainly doesn't feel like it was 9 days ago that A arrived home and he has left again already. We were talking last night and I made him laugh - he had annoyed me in the evening because I had asked him to do something on Friday, and Saturday and Sunday and he had still not done it (and by then it was dark and I knew that even if he went out to do it, it wouldn't be done properly because he wouldn't be able to see properly) - I told him that when I was really missing him while he was gone, I thought about the times he had really annoyed me and then I didn't miss him so much !!!! He thought that it was a strange way to deal with him not being at home and I told him "Whatever works for me, works for me !!!!"
We spent some amazing time together - just being together - not necessarily doing anything exciting - just enjoying being together.
I also spent Wednesday morning waiting for him to have some cancer cut out of his face only for him to go for a follow up appointment on Friday and be told that, while they had cut bigger than they thought necessary, they didn't get it all. So, he has to go back again once this lot has healed. The next time they are going to send it off to pathology before they stitch him up to make sure that they don't have to cut again. Poor bugger - the same thing happened with the last lot of cancer they cut out - didn't get it all and they had to go back in again. Lucky he doesn't have a career in modelling !!! My BIL thinks this could be a new weight loss strategy - getting bits cut out !!!!
Thursday I took the day off work and Friday K took the day off work to spend with Dad. I was really pleased as she can be a little narky with him at times. Actually, when he arrived and it looked like things may get a little tense between them, I said "OK, Dad is only here for 9 days so everyone has to be nice to everyone else" - and that seemed to be the mantra repeated a few times while he was home. If only it would work when he was home permanently !!!!!!!!!!
I thought that I was doing the right thing by booking a flight to see him half way through this month that he is away from home only for him to get to Townsville this morning and hear that the riggers are moving down to Rockhampton in the next couple of days which means he will be following them a few days later. So, now to see how much it will cost me to change my flights - bloody company couldn't organise a p*ss up in a brewery if their lives depended on it !!!!!!!!!!!! DRIVES ME NUTS (I think I may have mentioned this before !!!!!)
I have finally stopped the medication I was taking for depression so hopefully my weight will start to move now. I was going to walk tonight but got home late from work and brought some work home with me to do so I didn't land up walking. But, I have to be honest and say that it is a long time since I have felt so good. I feel in control of my life and, even though I miss A while he is away, I don't feel like I can't get through the day because he isn't here. I feel like I can cope by myself. I don't know how I will go with staying in the house by myself as K is off to house sit for friends of ours on Thursday but will deal with that when it happens. I cannot believe how much better I feel now, when I compare how I was feeling a few months ago - when everything seemed to be too hard and too much. I am still on heaps of medication and supplements (24.6 tablets per day) BUT, if that is what it takes to get my body and mind feeling like this, I will continue to take them because they are worth it - every - single - one - of - them.
Today I landed up working late to get reports printed off for our board meeting first thing tomorrow morning at Richlands, so I was not in the best frame of mind when I got home. That changed really quickly when I checked the mail and found an envelope addressed to The Body and Feet Retreat and this is what was inside :
Shelley from learnlovelive had mailed it to me. I cannot tell you how happy it made me - it will look absolutely great with my winter jumpers. I can't wait to wear it to work tomorrow. I don't think the people at work will understand the significance to me that it has as none of them know me as 'Me' - but I just love it ! Thank you soooooooo much Shelley, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you thinking of me. As Lisa from RandomActsofZen said "Karma" !!!
As it is Tuesday I am joining in with Jess at EssentiallyJess for #IBOT. I have to say that I missed my on-line friends this past week. I also missed celebrating my 30,000 page view - but hey, that happens sometimes !!! It's good to be back and I hope to be able to catch up with what everyone has been doing over the next few nights.
Take care everyone - and, remember, if you would like to be part of either Project Pay It Forward or, Project Brighten Someone's Day, please DM or e-mail me your physical address and I will add you to the list. I think I am loving these projects more than the people on the receiving end of them !
TFTD : One of the most rewarding moments in life is when you finally find the courage to let go of what you can't change.
(I cannot tell you how much this thought has changed my life !)