This week I must confess just exactly how nervous I am feeling about going to ProBlogger on Friday this week. Pee my pants nervous doesn't even begin to cover it ! Sleepless nights nervous may be a little closer to how I am feeling. I can go for hours not thinking about it but then the thought of it creeps into my head and I start to panic - and I realise that it's silly - pretty much like the blogger's dinner I went to last Tuesday - it was lovely and I had the best time - but that didn't actually help my nerves before I got there !!! But no matter how silly it is - it's still there and I am doing my best to quash it, but sometimes it's a battle that I don't win.
Those who have been reading my blog for a while will know that I am not a fan of social situations - I would rather stay at home and read my book than go out and meet new people (or even go out at all !!) - even though I may 'know' them online - I don't know them IRL. But, as I continue to push myself outside my comfort zones, when the tickets for PB went on sale, I decided to buy a ticket and share it with Colours of Sunset as she couldn't go on Friday and I couldn't go on Saturday. It turns out that apparently, we can't share tickets so I will be going on Friday and to the function on Friday night and, if I get a chance, watching the virtual recordings of Saturday (not sure if you can watch a virtual recording after the event, if not, I won't be seeing any of it I don't think - but that's OK - sometimes these things happen.)
I am very happy to be meeting up with Eleise on Thursday afternoon and then we are going out to dinner in the evening - so at least we can meet up on Friday morning before going in and don't have to go in like Nelly No Friends !! I have to still make a list of the bloggers I would like to meet although I am not sure that I will be able to just go up to anyone and introduce myself to them. I think part of me is scared they are going to look at me and say "Who exactly are you ? Sorry, never heard of your blog." I would rather not talk to anyone than have that happen to me !!!!
I have mostly picked the sessions I want to go to but I am sure that on Friday morning if I hear others saying "I think I'll go to this one" I may be changing my mind !!! I need to sit down and write down exactly what it is that I want to get out of PB so that I can make sure I attend the right sessions and, if possible, ask the right questions (although I have a sneaky suspicion that I won't be asking any questions - maybe they will allow us to send up written questions ???)
Having 'spoken' to other bloggers I know that I am not the only blogger who is nervous about PB (which is good to know but doesn't really help me) - and, if I am to believe K, I need to 'just put my big girl knickers on and go there, hold my head high and enjoy myself' !!! (Sometimes that girl is just to smart for her own good !!!)
Thanks to Kirsty for hosting IMC again - it's always a great linky even if I don't always link it - there are always great posts to read.
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Have the best week !
TFTD : If you make friends with yourself you will never be alone.
(I wonder if this is why I would rather stay at home than go out ?)