On Friday I finally got a phone call from the naturopath at Mrs Flannery's to say that the adrenal support could be taken in conjunction with the anti-depressant I am on. So I stopped off and picked them up and started to take them. I also picked up the herbal tablets that my folks brought back from South Africa that helped my sister when she was going through menopause and started taking those.
I had lost 0.9kg between Tuesday and Saturday - and that was good - it was the start of the new lifestyle and there was some indication that it was doing what it was supposed to do (to a certain extent) - losing weight as well as living a healthier lifestyle. This morning I was up 0.4kg - totally don't understand that as I have stuck 100% to the no wheat, no dairy, no sugar eating plan - but, that is OK - I am sure that in the end the weight will move and, while this is about losing weight, it is mainly about getting my body as healthy as I can, as I get older.
I can't say I feel any better yet - I can't say that I am less tired - I can't say that I feel any different to how I felt last week, but I have to believe that if I continue to feed my body with good quality, healthy food, I have to see the results as some point in the future.
Now - the crux of this post - we had some unexpected free time when we got home from work last night and A had suggested earlier in the day that we go for a walk. I certainly didn't feel up to walking anywhere other than to my bedroom but I got home and felt bad about not doing anything for so long, so agreed we would go for a walk BUT only as far as BIL and then back. We got changed and left. Never before has A walked faster than me. Never before has A had to slow down so I could catch up to him. Never before have I walked 1.4km and felt so buggered. Never before have I walked 1.4km and got home, curled up on the couch and slept for a couple of hours. So my question is this - is this it for me ? Is this my exercise regime totally out the window now ? Is this a short term set back ? Is this me being too hard on myself and not making allowances for the adrenal fatigue / hypoglycemia ? Is this me making excuses for why I am not exercising ?
I was supposed to do the 5km Color Run on Sunday which was cancelled due to the cr*ppy weather on Saturday - I wasn't expecting to run the 5km but after my pathetic attempt at a walk last night, I very much doubt I would have even made the 5km on Sunday.
Is this what it has come down to for me, for now ? Battling to walk 1.4km after being able to run (albeit slower than I would have liked but given the situation not much I could do about it) 10km not even a month ago ?
Is this where I have to work really hard on being kind to myself and just let go with whatever is happening until I can get back some control over how I feel and what I can accomplish ?
What do you think ?
And, because it is Tuesday it is time to link up with Essentially Jess for #IBOT.
TFTD : A bad attitude is like a flat tyre, you can't go anywhere until you change it.