Those of you who have been reading my blog will know the journey I have found myself on - nothing like the journey I actually set out on, but life is like that sometimes, it presents you with twists and turns you never expected, just to see how you cope in the face of adversity. (Well that is how I think it works - I may be completely wrong but that's OK too !!!)
My weight gain and tiredness have been two of the big issues I have faced over the past few months. Last week I had a cortisol test and a glucose tolerance test - and we have some answers.
I went back to my absolute darling hormone doctor (lovingly known at home as Maxine because she reminds me of the cartoon character so much !!) yesterday for the results of the above-mentioned tests and YAY - there is a reason for my tiredness and weight gain.
I have adrenal fatigue and my insulin is not doing what it is supposed to with the carbs that I eat.
Finally, something I can actually do to change how I feel.
Finally, there is something I can control that will change how I feel.
I could have leapt across that table and kissed her I was so happy. I don't think I have ever been so happy to be told that there is something wrong with me - but yesterday, it was the validation that I needed for myself, to know that it wasn't all in my head and that there was a very specific reason for what was happening.
Yes, there are still other issues that we are going to have to work on but just the fact that we have some reasons for the major issues is SUCH A RELIEF for A and I.
The bottom line is if I don't change my lifestyle I am almost guaranteed to be diabetic within 5-10 years. So, it really is a no brainer - I don't have an option but to change my lifestyle. I'm not going to kid anyone that it will be easy as I am the carbohydrate queen. I did follow the paleo way of eating for a few months a while back, I do know it works, but this time I have to embrace it as my new way of life not a short term change for a specific outcome.
I also have a plan for reducing the anti-depressants that I am on because I do feel that I am coping so much better and don't need to be on the high dosage that I am on. I have agreed that if I feel like I need to be on them I will stop the reduction plan and stay on the dosage that I am at that point. The past 6-8 weeks when I have been kinder to myself and stopped beating myself up over everything that 'I should' be doing and instead allowing myself to do the things that I can manage - and if that means sleeping most of the weekend, then that is OK. It has taken me a long time to accept that it is OK not to be superwoman - with this great job, fantastic exercise regime, good little business at home - it is OK to let A cook dinner and look after me because I am almost incapable of looking after myself, it doesn't mean I am any less a wife / mom - it just means I have accepted what my limitations are for now and that is not to say that they won't change in the future.
I have noticed lately as I have opened myself up more to helping people, the universe is thanking me by sending me new clients. I can't tell you when I last had a new client. In the past month I have had three new clients - two of whom have booked follow up treatments.
Linking up with Essentially Jess for #IBOT because we all know how we love to BOT !!
Life is good !
Have the best week ever !!!!!!
TFTD : Success doesn't come to you, you actually have to go and find it for yourself.