I Have Decided

that even though there is so much that still needs to be done around the house, I'm going to take some time off this weekend from moving boxes and unpacking and finding space for stuff that we don't really need but want to keep for whatever reason and spend some time on me.

I am tired.

In fact, I am totally exhausted.

We went to our last Auslan (sign language) lesson last night and I realised that, although we had already signed up before we knew we were selling our home, maybe I should have asked if I could defer until the second semester as I really don't feel like I have been able to give it the attention that it deserved.  I thoroughly enjoyed the course but feel that I am not nearly as fluent as I would like to be.  It all comes down to practice and I haven't done enough of that.

This Saturday afternoon I have booked myself in for a massage and I am hoping that will go a long way towards making me feel better.  I also plan on doing some reading and maybe even some more knitting.  My baby blankets have taken a bit of a back seat lately and this is the time that they are really needed.

The rain is a welcome respite for our gardens.  It's just a pity we haven't been able to get the 4 water tanks connected to collect the water from the roof.

Over the weekend I will take some photos of the new hall table we bought along with the outside lanterns and the Blessing Buddha that I bought who will greet clients when they arrive for their treatment.  He is extremely heavy and I am thankful that A was able to go past and collect it because we tried to bring him home on Tuesday night and, after it took A I don't know how long to get him out of his crate, we found that part of his robe had broken off - so he landed up going back on Wednesday to get one that wasn't broken.  He had him outside the door waiting for final instructions for placement from me when I got home from work.

Have the best Friday and an even better weekend !

TFTD :  Relationships don't create happiness, they reflect it.

Being Nice To Me

A few weeks ago, I looked at my phone and saw the words in red of this tweet on the front of my phone :

You have been saying mean things about my friend all day! First on your blog, now this! Enough!

I was absolutely horrified - what mean things had I said about anybody ?  I try really hard to be supportive and encouraging when I tweet / FB / post blogs and, as much as I wracked my brains, I couldn't think of anything I had posted where I had been mean to anyone.

And then I read the whole tweet.

And then I knew who I had been mean to.

I had been mean to me.

I had said things that were not supportive of me.

I had said things that did not encourage me.

I had said things that were mean and nasty about me.

And it wasn't right - how come I can be so supportive and encouraging of others and yet so destructive of myself ?  

Is it because I think others are more worthy of my support and encouragement than I am ?

I don't know.  But, what I do know is that I made a decision - to try really, really hard to be nice to myself.

To support and encourage myself.

To not put myself down.

And to give myself the boost that I need when I need it.  Not in a "I love myself and look how good I am" kind of way, but in the same way that I support and encourage those in my village.

Are there times when I will forget ?  Absolutely.

Is this OK ?  Yes, so long as I realise when I am doing it and turn it around.

On Saturday night I saw this on The Warm Fuzzies FB page and it was just so appropriate, I had to use it in this post.

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TFTD : Stop expecting others to show you love, acceptance, commitment and respect when you don't even show that to yourself.