Another Week

This was another busy week for us starting with a meeting with one of the builders on Monday night which went really well.  All four of us liked him and he had some great suggestions for us on where we could save some money without putting up some cr*ppy little place for the old people.  We are waiting for his final quote after we made a few changes on the night.

What didn't go so well was the phone call from Council advising that, despite a meeting with them and a few phone calls to confirm overlay maps etc, the application that we submitted would result in us having to pay $19k in infrastructure charges.  This all despite the fact that we had been advised to get the size of the house/garage under 100m2 to avoid infrastructure charges !!!  This meant that we had to redo the whole application - a trying task that we finished at 11.45pm that night - and, we went to the bottom of the pile again.  That was the worst thing about it because basically now we are 12 days behind where we were and, given we are trying to get the retainer wall at the back of the house and the retainer wall for the slab built before the Christmas break, we are cutting it really fine now.  But, I'm of the opinion that things will get built when they get built and stressing about it isn't going to make them get done any quicker.

Yesterday after work I went to see my podiatrist to see if he could help with the pains I am getting in the balls of my feet when I run.  The body glide has definitely helped HEAPS with the burning but the pain has still been there.

He has recommended I get a different pair of orthotics for running because there is not enough cushioning in my current pair which are fine for every day wear (although I only really wear them in winter when I wear shoes - in summer I spend most days in thongs or barefoot in the office).  He said that I am suffering from capsulitis where the nerves and tendons on the bones of the balls of my feet are inflammed from the added pressure of running on them. I said that I knew that my weight was not helping but, at the moment, there wasn't anything that I did that was moving it so I am trying to increase my exercise to burn more calories in the hope of creating a calorie deficit which would have to result in some weight loss at some point in time.

He also said that he wouldn't recommend the running shoes that I am using as they are over correcting my problem.  I have run about 850kms in them and they will be fine for walking in - just not to run in.  He gave me the names of two pairs of shoes so I am going to see how much they cost and look into buying one of those pairs.  Hopefully I will be able to sell the second pair that I have at home (same as the original pair I bought) that I have run exactly 2km in !!!!  He also adapted my current orthotics to spread the load under the balls of my feet better so, hopefully, that will help until I get my running orthotics.

Her back yard

We got some photos this morning from K showing the first snow fall in the garden.  They did have some snow on Halloween but it melted as soon as it landed on the ground.  When I FaceTimed a little while later she had to keep changing her hand holding the phone as she doesn't have gloves and it was too cold to keep one hand out her jacket longer than about 25-30 seconds !  She said that getting gloves was the last thing she needed and then she should be set for winter.  When the wind doesn't blow she said it's amazing but when the wind blows - it goes right through you if you don't have the right clothes.

Another view

This weekend we are expecting temps in the mid to high 30s so I think we are going to spend lots of time inside with the aircon on as I doubt there will be much in the way of breezes around.  Plus, they started digging for the deck on the little veranda on Wednesday so there is sand e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e - the dogs haven't been allowed inside because they are just covered in dust and think it's great to be able to run up and down these huge sand banks.  I do hope that all that they have dug out will be used to support the floor when they do eventually throw the slab otherwise we are going to have a continual layer of dust over everything in the house which will drive me to drink quicker than you can say Jack Flash !  They are supposed to be pouring the concrete today for the foundations and the footings.  Then they have to build the supporting walls and then they can throw the slab - the quicker the better is all I can say !!

I have a 9km run planned for tonight - I hope that it will have cooled down a little by the time I leave work this afternoon !!!!

Have the best weekend !

TFTD :  Love and kindness can move mountains.  Learn to give without any reason.  Today, be someone who helps someone else look forward to tomorrow.

Things I Know

I'll have to check if Ann of Help ! I'm Stuck fame is still hosting the Things I Know linky - if not, then this is just a post about things I know - otherwise I'll be linking in with her.

This week :

- I know that I am enjoying my running

- I know that while I'm not running as far or as fast as I would like, I'm slowly getting there (and I'm sure that if it wasn't for the hills I would be a lot closer !!!)

- I know that falling asleep at 7pm in front of the TV is not something that usually happens to me

- I know that getting up, showering and going to bed after above sleep, has left me feeling drugged the next morning - in fact, if I didn't know better, I would think that I had been drugged

- I know that I am SO happy it's Friday

- I know that I am so happy that the carpeting is finally finished and that it is only one set of shutters and changing the security screens that still has to happen

- I know that the council was put here to take my hard earned money and make me miserable

- I know that if you have a driveway on a plan in order to get into a property, you have to pay another $298 in order to get a licence to build the driveway

- I know that this p*sses me off because how else would you get onto the property ?

What do you know today ?

Have you linked in yet ?

Have the best weekend possible !!

TFTD :  No amount of money will make you happy if you aren't happy with yourself.

Things I Know

Once again, I'm late for the linky but I guess late is better than never turning up !!

Joining in with Ann from Help I'm Stuck - then week I know :

- I know that I'm not the scaredy cat I thought I would be staying at the house without A - K is still there but she is down the other side of the house and when she is asleep, she isn't likely to wake up for anything less than an atomic bomb

- I know that I am looking forward to this weekend

- I know that having a massage on a Saturday afternoon is a great way to spend some time

- I know that I am nervous about going to see Mitchell Coombes by myself but I am taking my eReader so I can have my head in my 'book' until he is due to start and won't have to talk to anyone

- I know that I am looking forward to the Suns playing the Bulldogs - how cool would it be if we could notch up another win and go 7 and 2 so far in the year ?

- I know that I am enjoying walking again, even though where we live is full of hills which my knee doesn't really like too much but, if I am careful and step correctly, I'm OK

- I know that I have been much better about taking my tablets this week - until last night - when I put them next to my bed while I looked for my book and then forgot to take them.  I only saw them when I woke up this morning - I left them there for tonight !

- I know that I am feeling pretty happy with my life right now

What do you know this week ?

Are you going to link up ?

Good - I'll catch up on the linky then !!

Have the BEST weekend !

TFTD :  Happy people do not grieve for the things they don't have, but rejoice for those that they do.

What Do You Know ?

And it's Friday again - for which I am most grateful although I do feel bad (very occasionally) for seeming to wish my life away waiting for Friday to come around !!!!

Linking in with Rhianna from A Parenting Life for one of the easiest linkies for the week - Things I Know.

- I know that going to gym 4 times in the week is fantastic

- I know that I am getting stronger every time I go

- I know that I am still the newbie in the classes but I don't care - I give it my best shot and that is all that I can ask from myself

- I know that paying (what works out to be) $4.53 per class in order for me to get fit and healthy is a small price to pay

- I know that I need to book in for my assessment and program so that I can mix up my exercise so my body is kept guessing about what I am doing (I will do this the week after next as A is due home today and so will be here next week and I would rather spend the time with him instead of spending more time at the gym)

- I know that I like that I can change the program whenever I want and they will work with me on a new program

- I know that this health kick can be rather addictive and I like that I am getting to the point where if I don't exercise I feel like cr*p - this means that I am more likely to keep on going because I love how I feel when I am finished a session

What do you know today ?

Have you blogged about it ?

Have you shared it with other

bloggers at A Parenting Life ?

 

Have the best weekend and take care !

 

TFTD : It’s not what you have been through that defines who you are; it’s how you got through it that has made you the person you are today.

Gym 1 - Couch 0

Another day another class but man, can I feel it today.  Even turning over in bed last night caused some pain !!!  But it's that good DOMS ache so I am not complaining.  The stairs at work are a killer though !

The class last night was a tad more aerobic than what I was expecting but I managed to keep up - sort of.  Clearly I wasn't the most un-co there as there was a guy in front of me who looked even more un-co than I did !

But, it was good and I was completely buggered after I had finished.  Plus I forgot to take my water so that didn't help :(

What I am finding is that when I get home I am not hungry and don't want to eat anything - have got in touch with the dietician to see what she recommends.

Tonight A and I are going to for a walk with the dogs - I want to try to spend the last two evenings with him before he goes.  Yesterday he thought he may have to leave on Thursday but by last night it had reverted to leaving on Friday.

K and I will go and sign up with the gym tomorrow and then it will be me and the gym - my new bestie !!!

Have the best day and take care !

TFTD : Each moment is a place you've never been - Mark Strand

Gym 2 - Couch 0

Up until a few months ago, K and I were going to PT sessions twice a week.  Then something happened (I can't remember what) and we stopped.  And I noticed it but then the PT guy went and got a job working at the mines somewhere and so is only home one week every three weeks.  So that effectively put an end to our training, mainly because I wasn't up to trying to find someone else to train us.

The last time I was at the dietician, she mentioned that while my weight loss is going well for the moment, there is going to come a point when I plateau (as we all know) and that will be when I need to change my exercise routine around.  Now, while I am happy to go for a walk or get on my bike by myself, I'm not very good at doing circuits or anything like that.

K's friend won a package with a gym in Southport and they have a $55 3 week special which we were going to join - well K did join but it was the two weeks before A's birthday and I really didn't have the time to be fluffing around with PT sessions and going to a gym that is effectively 20min drive from home.

Then a few weeks ago, my SIL told me about a special at the gym which is only one road away from me - sign up during September, and they wave the $130 joining fee.  And, if two of you join up, the second person gets it at a reduced rate - bonus !!!!  You also get 7 days free trial.

Well last night I started my 7 day free trial.  This morning I know that I have done something different to just going for a walk.  But it's a good different.  It's that ache in my muscles that tells me I have worked them in ways they haven't been worked for a while.  It's a great feeling.

Last night I did a Body Conditioning class which was pretty much core work (although my feet and legs were a tad wobbly by the time I was finished that !).  As K couldn't get there for that class (started 5.30) and only the 6.30 class, I stayed and did the Body Pump class with her.  Well I definitely had a case of Elvis legs by the time I finished that.  I don't know if I could say I actually enjoyed either of the classes but that may just be because they are both done to music, I didn't know what I was doing, I couldn't hear what the instructor was saying and my head was turned a lot of the time while I tried to watch what they were doing and copy them !!!  Having said that, it did feel good.

Tonight I am off to the Body Tone class which I figure can't be too hard and then tomorrow I will tackle the spin class.  There is a spin class tonight after the BT class but I don't think I will be able to handle a spin class tonight and tomorrow night so I will just leave it until tomorrow.  K and I are going to sign up before she leaves for NZ so that we can get the special plus it will give me something to do in the evenings while I am on my own because they are both leaving me on Friday :(

Because it's Tuesday, it's time to join in with Jess from Essentially Jess for #IBOT.

Have the best day !

 

Are you exercising as much as you could ?

Have you got a plan in place

in order to fit into your

togs when summer gets here ?

Do you need to start now ?

 





TFTD : You can’t keep running away from your fears. At some point in life you will have to build up the courage to face and overcome them.

A Long Overdue Post

It's been a while since I have posted about my health / weight issues - mainly because I have been tracking along quite well although not at any great rate of knots.

Yesterday afternoon I had appointments with my dietician and my hormone doctor.  I drove away from there feeling so happy - it was such a good feeling.  To finally feel like everything is falling into place and settling down into some sort of normalcy (well as normal as anyone's body can be !!)

Firstly, my visit to the dietician - total loss to date 7.6kgs (loss over holiday 0.2kg).  My body fat % has reduced by 7.8% (I have another 7% body fat to lose to get into a healthy range.)  My body fat has reduced by 8.3kg.  My lean body mass has increased by 5.3kg.  And my hydration levels have improved.  She is very happy with my fat loss and lean body mass increase - so if she is happy, I'm happy !

Then I went to my Maxine (real name Maura) and she looked at my blood results and, apart from my Vitamin D levels which have dropped despite taking my daily Vitamin D drops, there are no issues.  I can continue with what I am doing and only have to go back to see her in December.  So, she is happy with where I am, which means I am happy too !

My exercise is coming along nicely (except for yesterday because I had both these appointments after work and by the time I got home and had done dinner, I wasn't up to doing much at all !).  I have been walking just about every day.  I have been on the stationary bike as well as doing the crunches, reverse crunches and daily planks.  On the weekend, we took our road bikes out on Saturday and Sunday morning - it was so good to get out on the road.  The weather was just beautiful - and the time we spent on the bike was a great way to spend some of our weekend !!!!

So, for those who have been following my tumultuous journey through menopause / weight gain / drop off in exercise - I am hoping that this is the turning point.  I am feeling so positive and upbeat about where I am right here - right now - it's a great feeling and I just wish I could bottle it up so I could have a sip of it when I am feeling cr*p and things aren't so positive !!!

Because it is Tuesday, and #IBOT, it's time to link up with Jess from Essentially Jess.

 

Have you linked in today ?

 

Have the best day !

TFTD : Never forget where you've been. Never lose sight of where you're going. And never take for granted the people who travel the journey with you.

Walking Tonight

Anyone following this journey will know that I have had heaps of ups and downs.  Recently I went to see a dietician who told me that I was having too many calories in my breakfast smoothies and I had to change what I ate for breakfast.  Well I have changed it and am now eating baked beans (definitely not my favourite but better than egg !!!) and my weight has been yo-yo-ing much better.  It will be interesting to see what she has to say when I go to see her next week.

One of the things she told me I needed to do was exercise for at least 20 mins a day and 2 x 20 mins on Saturday and Sunday.  Apart from one or two days when we had family over for dinner after work and we went to see Pink, I have done this.  Not that I can see any difference on the scales but never the less, I have done it.  Mostly.  Yesterday I only did 32 mins.  Today I did 28 mins.

To be honest I feel a bit silly posting about the 20 min walks that I have been doing when I see the exercise that others do and I have to remind myself that I am me and I need to do things at the pace that is right for me for now.  The more I do, the more I will be able to do.  And, I have to stop comparing myself to what I was doing previously - right now I don't think I could walk 10km never mind run 10km in 63 mins !!!!!  But, the past is the past and right now I need to look forward.

Anyway, back to my walk tonight.  It's amazing the difference at home now that A has left again.  K called me on her way home from work to tell me about something that had happened at work and how she had handled it in a mature manner - which is good because sometimes she can be very head strong and talk first think later kind of girl !!  Anyway, then she offered to go to Coles to get what I needed for dinner to save me having to stop on my way home from work.  Where is my child and who is this living in my house ?  Oh yes, A has left so the 'nice' K is back !!!  How am I going to deal with these two when A is home permanently ????????????????????????????

I got home and she was watching Hamish and Andy and when I came through dressed to walk she asked me how far I was going. I told her and she asked if I could wait a minute while she got changed as she would come with me on her skateboard.  I waited and off we went.  She bloody well gave me a few heart attacks as the board stopped and she ran off the front of it.  As she was skating along I was shouting "Mind out for the cars coming" and thought to myself "No matter how old she is, she is still my child and I am still watching out for her."  She was pushing on ahead and then coming back and high-fiving me as she went past and then turning and pushing on ahead and high-fiving me on the way past.  We chatted when she was close and were quiet when she was too far away.  At one point she went to high five me and I had the phone and remote in my hand and so lent over with my other hand and she offered to carry my phone and the garage remote.  I gave them to her and then a little while later realised that with her skating backwards and forwards, I wasn't going to get a true reading of how far I had walked so I got the phone back from her.

My BIL was putting in petrol at the servo across the road when we came to cross the road and so I went and waited for him to come out from paying for the petrol.  In the meantime K had jumped into his car and hid in the back seat.  We chatted a while and then he went and got in the car.  A little while later K came running out.  She said she didn't think he got a fright when she popped up at the back - but that was probably because she was laughing so much he probably heard her !!!! I had to laugh.  The two of them have so much fun together - call each other "Cuzzie" even though they are uncle and niece.  He always teases her that she is 2 yrs older than she is and she used to get really upset about it - now she just plays along.  He has a seniors card so we are always teasing him about how old he is.  It's great to have family that you can joke with like that.

Anyway, I had a good walk.  Got home and made a great chicken stir fry with enough for another couple of meals.  I found the things that I have to send off to the medical aid in the morning and now I am about to watch a movie I recorded ages ago and get some crocheting done.

Today is Tuesday to I am linking in with Essentially Jess for #IBOT - like all good bloggers do !!!!

Have the best week and take care !

Have you exercised today ?



TFTD : Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don't have to like it, it's just easier if you do.

I Must Confess

This week I am joining in with Kirsty from My Home Truths and, even if there was a prompt this week, I wouldn't need it because this has been weighing on my mind since Friday and I need to get it off my chest.  I have fallen off the Guns, Buns and Abs Challenge !!

On Friday, my lower back was sore and I thought I would skip the leg lifts but do the squats and push-ups - I didn't.  I got home and A got home soon after and I spent the evening sitting on the couch with him.

On Saturday - we got up and had breakfast.  Went off to an osteo appointment and then drove around looking at houses.  We got home, had dinner and spent the evening on the couch watching footy and cricket.

On Sunday - we got up, had breakfast and A did the pre-course reading that he had to for the course he is on Monday - Wednesday this week.  I sat and watched Grey's and crocheted.  When he was finished we went to Flight Centre to pick up our docs for our holiday to Tasmania, only to find that one of the flights had had a time change so instead of leaving Launceston at 2pm - we were leaving at 9.30am - so we landed up changing our flight home to the following day - and then had to change our car hire and insurance - and the guy who booked it all for us wasn't in, so none of that could be finalised.  So we left there and A wanted to look at buying me some more warm clothes as the stuff we bought when we went to NZ won't fit me. I won't spend any more money on clothes that I will use for just over two weeks.  I did land up getting a pair of thermal pants that were on special for $15.  From there we went down to Currumbin Valley to look at properties - found a couple of places but considering they ranged in price from $1,2m to $1,750m - as nice as they were, they are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay out of our price range (which is a little sad as the one especially looked just perfect for all of us !!!)  Oh well, we will continue to look.

Had to stop at KMart to get bricketts for the fire as A was cooking a pork roast.  I spent a fair bit of the afternoon sleeping in the car - we got home and I went and got into bed and A woke me up at about 7pm to say that dinner was ready.  He had cooked the veggies, warmed up some of the roast veggies from last night and done the pork - he really is a keeper this guy !!!!!

Anyway, that was that - after eating dinner there was no ways I was going to do 115 squats, 12 push ups and 75 leg lifts so another day passed with no exercise from me.

I'd like to say that from today I will be back into the swing of things, but I'm not sure.  Am thinking I need to get some help and motivation from somewhere.  Maybe I should try to rope A into doing the exercise with me.  He has done really well and has lost just on 10kgs in the 4 weeks since he left home - if I didn't love him so much I would hate him for being able to just cut out sugar / soft drinks and lose weight like that !!!!!!  I love that he is losing the weight because it will be so much better for him but hate that I am trying so hard and putting the weight on.  Again, it's something I just have to accept until we work out why I am putting the weight on and then change things so that it comes off instead.

Have a great week and look after yourselves !

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TFTD : Growth is impossible without change. And if you cannot change your mind, you cannot change anything in your life. Sometimes you need to look at things from a different perspective.

I Must Confess

This week I am joining in with Kirsty from My Home Truths for I Must Confess because I need to get this off my chest (OK, I have already got it off my chest to A) but in order to be held more accountable and, given he doesn't live at home much, I thought I would put it out there.

A few months ago I started a paleo lifestyle, at the instigation of my doctor when she told me that I would more than likely become diabetic within 5 years if I didn't do something about it.  So I went cold turkey - cut out wheat, sugar and dairy.  There was the odd occasion when I felt like an ice-cold Coke and I would generally wait a night or two and if I still felt like it, I would have it, and savour every single drop of it.  I found this rather strange as I have, as a rule, not been a Coke girl - I drank Coke Zero for many years and then swopped to Pepsi Max and couldn't stomach 'real' Coke.

I have made coconut rough and chocolate fudge, chocolate cake and banana and nut muffins - all in an attempt to make me feel like I wasn't missing out on any of the 'nice' things to eat.  And they are nice, make no mistake BUT they are not sugar, nor do they contain sugar.

I like sugar.  I like how it tastes.  I like the things that are made of sugar.  I would rather have dessert than dinner.  I do not like how sugar makes me feel.  But, as I have mentioned before, I don't handle sugar very well.  When I have something with sugar in, I generally crash about 20-30 mins later and will sleep for a good 4-5 hrs if given the chance.

Since A has been away, and more especially while K was away house-sitting, my eating has gone to absolute cr*p.  I would make one big wok of stir fry on a Monday night and then take it to work for lunch every day.  Dinner became carrot sticks and dip, or dry wors if I could be bothered to go out to Coomera to buy some, or Coke.  Yes, you read that right - I would have one can, then another, then another and finally another - and none of them even really touched sides - I would skull them all - and then be too full to eat anything (funny that, hey !!!???)  On Friday I stopped at Bakers Delight and bought two croissants for breakfast.  We stopped at Stapleton on the way to the airport and I had a muffin for lunch.  Got to Townsville and we went to the local hotel and had ribs and chips for dinner.  I had sugar overload badly on Friday.  My body didn't like it one little bit.  Why do I do this to myself ?  I know I am going to feel cr*p afterwards - I could hardly keep a conversation going with K on the way to the airport as I was so out of it from the sugar, and nodding off in the passenger seat,

Honestly, I have absolutely no idea what has happened to the good eating habits that I used to have but what I do know is that I have to find them soon.  I am hoping to use our holiday as motivation to eat right and get moving and I am hoping that, having made this confession, my village will hold me accountable for what I do (or don't do) moving forward.  I know that I need to be held accountable somewhere and with spending so much time by myself, it is too easy to just eat and drink what I want when I want it.  A is doing so well with losing weight - while he doesn't know how much he has lost because he doesn't have a scale up there, I could certainly see it and when I asked him about it he said that he has had to pull his belt in to the next hole.  I am SOOOOOOOO happy for him although I am just sorry that he had to get a health scare like this to make him do what he needs to do.  Either way, I'm extremely proud of the progress that he has made.

I will try to post about how I am doing but if you don't read anything, please feel free to ask how I am going and kick my butt if that is what I need !!!!

Have the best week and thanks to Kirsty for hosting this linky !!!

TFTD : No matter how much it hurts now, someday you will look back and realise your struggles changed your life for the better.

I Must Confess ........

I know that last week's linky was about embarrassing moments but seeing as I am getting old and not quite up to speed as everyone else, I am going to blog about it this week instead of last week !!! And, because Kirsty isn't too fussed about what our confession is about, I figure it is OK to be a week out of sync with everyone else !

My name is Me and I am over-weight fat. There is no two ways about it. There is really no polite way to put it. I am fat. Bottom line (no pun intended - OK maybe just a little pun intended !) - I am the biggest I have been since I was 38 weeks pregnant over 21 years ago. Last week I put on 4.3kg. Yes, I ate no sugar, no wheat, no dairy and I put on 4.3kgs. Maybe it is all the protein and healthy fruit and veg that I have been eating !!! Seriously, it has to be the medication because what the hell else could it be ???????

But, it is very difficult to walk around with a sign on my forehead saying "I am this big because of the medication I am taking " - isn't it ? And, in actual fact, I'm not even taking the medication anymore although I have been told that it will still take a while for my system to get rid of all the medication and things may be slow after that. Well thank you for that small gem of NOTHING !!

Anyway, my confession is about how I went walking on Saturday and landed up with chaffing on my butt cheeks ! Yes, you read that correctly - my butt is now so big, my cheeks chaff each other while I am walking. As do my tuckshop arms.

This is where I wish I was walking

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This is something I didn't know because I have never done any exercise at this weight. You better believe that the last time I weighed this much the last thing on my mind was exercise - all I wanted to do was GET THE BABY OUT !!!! (She - although we didn't know she was a she at the time- was two weeks late) and I didn't walk anywhere - I waddled. I was surprised that nobody called the Whale Protection Services (or whatever they are called) when I was out because I certainly bore a close resemblance to a whale - thank goodness I was never in togs so they didn't have to worry about a beached whale !!

And my poor feet - I don't think they knew what had hit them during the walk. I set off for the PO because I mistakenly thought that if I posted my latest PBSD stuff at the PO and not at a satellite collection box, it would go sooner. Well that was wrong - it only gets collected at 5pm Monday - Friday so it makes no difference. But that is OK - except that from the shopping centre, I decided to turn left instead of right, not really thinking about how far left I would have to go before I got to a road going left that would take me back to the road that I needed to be on to get home. By the time I realised what I had done it was too late to turn back as it would have taken me longer to walk home from there than to carry on the way I was going. So, there I was, pounding the streets, at 10mins p/km (so sad when I think of what I was running previously BUT I am not going to compare - well not a lot anyway !!!) and my poor feet had to put up with the extra 'I don't know how much force because of the extra weight I am carrying' going through them. No wonder they were screaming at me for the last 2kms. I landed up walking 6.22km in 1 hr 1 min. Apart from the above complaints, I felt fantastic when I was finished. Not so much because of how far (or not) or how fast (or not) I had walked - but more because I had actually just got out there and done it, without looking for an excuse about why I couldn't do it. This week I had committed to walking three days - I have done two as I managed to get out for a shorter walk on Sunday.  Clearly Runkeeper does not like to work when my phone is shoved down the waistband of my pants as I had only gone about 600m when it was telling me I had done 1km in about 6 mins - which would have been absolutely fantastic if I hadn't only been walking 1km in 10mins the day before !!!!  I knew it was stuffed so I reset it and then had to carry my phone the rest of the way so that temperamental Runkeeper would work properly !!!!  While it isn't the three that I committed to, it is better than the zero walks which I have been averaging for the past too many months !!!!

I have to carry my phone because the iPhone holder that I have causes too much chaffing under my arm. I am getting to the point where the bigger exercise clothes that I bought a few months ago are getting too small for me. Do I go out and buy some more or do I squish myself as best I can into them for a few more weeks while I wait to see if this weight starts to move ? Am I going to embarrass myself even more if I continue to wear clothes that, while they aren't exactly too small, they are very close to it ? Is someone going to be wearing the Judgey McJudgey hat that I sometimes have on ? Are they going to look at me and say "Goodness - doesn't she have a mirror at home ? Didn't she look at herself before she walked out the door ?" Or is it all in my head and nobody is actually looking at me anyway because, aside from the fact that I am large and out exercising, there really is no reason for anyone to look at me ?

No matter, I have to do this for me. I need to do this for me. I need to be exercising because I feel so much better when I exercise. I need to get out there and get those endorphins flowing again. I need to get out there and improve my time and my fitness levels. I need to get out there so that I can improve my self esteem. I need to get out there so that I can be an example for A and K. And, most importantly, I want to get out there again - I have missed the above feelings from not exercising like I used to. It has been all too easy to slip out of the habit and now I need to work on getting back into the habit.

Rhianna from The Parenting Life tweeted about a squatting challenge which I think I may try. And, if I am going to do that I could just as well start my daily planking session. So, with those two exercises and my walking, it looks like I am on my way to getting my fitness levels back to where they were (hopefully without too much pressure from me about 'the good ole days when I used to be able to do xyz' !!!!)  Having decided to do the above, I started with 3 x 20 squats when I got back from my walk and 1:49:3 of planking on my knees.  Tomorrow the plan is to do 80 squats and somehow build up to 300 squats by day 30 so am going to have to do a little spreadsheet (yes, why thank you, I am the queen of spreadsheets) tomorrow so that I can work out how many I have to increase it by each day in order to get to the 300 in 30 days !!!!

What are you confessing to today ?  Why not join in with Kirsty at My Home Truths ?

Have the best week !

TFTD : Sometimes what you want isn't what you get, but what you get in the end is so much better than what you wanted.

Things I Know

Yippeee - it's Friday which means it's time to link in with MC from Saturday Morning Ogre Mum and tomorrow it's the weekend - I'm not sure which brings me more pleasure - the linky or the weekend !!!!  (OK I do know but I don't want to upset either MC or the weekend !!!!)

As always, a random list of things that I know :

- I know that next weekend will be even better than this weekend because A is due home on Friday afternoon sometime.

- I know that I have started that count-down.

- I know that, while I have missed A dreadfully, I have enjoyed the one-on-one time K and I have spent together.

- I know that I am glad that she has still gone out with her friends a few time and not felt that she has to stay at home because I am there by myself (funnily enough I am more than capable of being able to amuse myself for a couple of hours when I am all alone, in complete charge of the remote, my books, my crocheting and the bath !!)

- I know that I had a great time with some of my blogging friends on Saturday and I am very grateful for their technical knowledge (because I am only just a little bit better than totally useless) when it comes to anything technical (hence not being able to use the home computer since just after A left because I can't get the keyboard to work !!!).  In the past, I have had a few people ask if I could have an 'E-mail Subscription' for my blog.  I have not been able to do this UNTIL the other night !  Because of the clever ladies there on Saturday - they told me, step by step, how I could add the e-mail widget to my blog - AND I MANAGED TO DO IT !!!  (Yes, it was really easy, yes, most people can probably do it in their sleep but whenever I manage to do anything slightly techie, I am thrilled !!!)

- I know that you can now subscribe to my blog, via e-mail (see on my side bar), should you wish to ensure that you never miss one of my absolutely riveting rambling posts.

- I know that I was surprised at how many people said that they would like/love to be part of Project Brighten Someone's Day and then didn't send me their address.  If you want to be part of it, please send me your physical address as the project is a snail mail project.

- I know (well I think I know) that if the weather doesn't fine up over the next two days, The Color Run may once again be postponed.

- I know that if it goes ahead I am going to be walking the full 5km and be proud of being able to walk that far (sad, but true).

- I know that, even though I am totally nervous about meeting Crashtest Mummy tomorrow night, I will have a great time.

- I know that I am soooooooooooooo looking forward to my kahuna massage on Saturday - after my I Must Confess post on Monday and some of the lovely comments left, I decided to book a massage and, while it may not land up being my perfect day, it will certainly go a long way towards me having a great day !

- I know that I am looking forward to meeting a client's 9 day old baby boy after work today where I can get a chance to cuddle and smell a new born baby and say "Thank goodness it's not mine" and then go home with K and have a peaceful night's sleep !

- I know that, while time seems to be flying by at a rate of knots faster than I can keep up with, this week seems to have dragged something terrible.

- I know that I love my on-line friends - thank you all for being the supportive, encouraging, inspiring and amazing bunch of people that you are - don't change !

- I know that, while I keep complaining about how fast time is flying by, I can't wait for July to come as my new Personal Planner arrived today - it is sooooooooo cute and I can't wait to start using it.

- I know that, while I don't give a rat's butt about stats, I am just amazed at how many people are visiting my blog - thanks to everyone for stopping by.  When I started this blogging caper 'back in the day before it was cool to have a blog' I never imagined that there would be so many people stopping by on a daily basis.  I must be doing something right otherwise you wouldn't keep coming back (or is it just that there are that many people in the world and new people are finding me, every day, but never return ??????)  No, I know some of you keep coming back because you leave me lovely comments - thank you for those - they make me smile and laugh and keep my sanity sometimes.

What do you know today ?

Have the best weekend !

TFTD : Good things come to those who believe, better things come to those who are patient, and the best things come to those who never give up.

Is This It .............. For Now ?

On Friday I finally got a phone call from the naturopath at Mrs Flannery's to say that the adrenal support could be taken in conjunction with the anti-depressant I am on.  So I stopped off and picked them up and started to take them.  I also picked up the herbal tablets that my folks brought back from South Africa that helped my sister when she was going through menopause and started taking those.

I had lost 0.9kg between Tuesday and Saturday - and that was good - it was the start of the new lifestyle and there was some indication that it was doing what it was supposed to do (to a certain extent) - losing weight as well as living a healthier lifestyle.  This morning I was up 0.4kg - totally don't understand that as I have stuck 100% to the no wheat, no dairy, no sugar eating plan - but, that is OK - I am sure that in the end the weight will move and, while this is about losing weight, it is mainly about getting my body as healthy as I can, as I get older.

I can't say I feel any better yet - I can't say that I am less tired - I can't say that I feel any different to how I felt last week, but I have to believe that if I continue to feed my body with good quality, healthy food, I have to see the results as some point in the future.

Now - the crux of this post - we had some unexpected free time when we got home from work last night and A had suggested earlier in the day that we go for a walk.  I certainly didn't feel up to walking anywhere other than to my bedroom but I got home and felt bad about not doing anything for so long, so agreed we would go for a walk BUT only as far as BIL and then back.  We got changed and left.  Never before has A walked faster than me.  Never before has A had to slow down so I could catch up to him.  Never before have I walked 1.4km and felt so buggered.  Never before have I walked 1.4km and got home, curled up on the couch and slept for a couple of hours.  So my question is this - is this it for me ?  Is this my exercise regime totally out the window now ?  Is this a short term set back ?  Is this me being too hard on myself and not making allowances for the adrenal fatigue / hypoglycemia ?  Is this me making excuses for why I am not exercising ? 

I was supposed to do the 5km Color Run on Sunday which was cancelled due to the cr*ppy weather on Saturday - I wasn't expecting to run the 5km but after my pathetic attempt at a walk last night, I very much doubt I would have even made the 5km on Sunday. 

Is this what it has come down to for me, for now ?  Battling to walk 1.4km after being able to run (albeit slower than I would have liked but given the situation not much I could do about it) 10km not even a month ago ? 

Is this where I have to work really hard on being kind to myself and just let go with whatever is happening until I can get back some control over how I feel and what I can accomplish ?

What do you think ?

And, because it is Tuesday it is time to link up with Essentially Jess for #IBOT.

TFTD :  A bad attitude is like a flat tyre, you can't go anywhere until you change it.

It's Too Hot To Exercise

...................................... or is it ?????

My sentiments when I woke up this morning and finally decided to brave the heat were "It's just too hot to do anything - maybe later when / if it cools down."  and I was sort of OK with that.

A left with his brother to take MIL and niece to the airport and just after he left my trainer popped over with some more information on something that we had discussed at training on Thursday evening.  He is a very chatty chap and so we stood in the driveway talking for quite a while.  In the meantime A was calling me to say that somehow there had been a mix up and the flight was at 8.25am (according to their tickets which nobody had looked at !!!) and not 11.25am as per their itinerary !!!!!  Huge panic stations from them but the boys managed to organise it and they are on the 3pm flight this afternoon !!!

Anyway, I had a dip in the pool and then went out and did some shopping.  Bought some new togs and so, of course, had to try them out when I got home (as you do).  And then something that my trainer had said to me on Thursday night struck home - I can exercise in the pool !!!!

So this is what I did :

- 10 laps of breaststroke (I ABSOLUTELY HATE water on my face so that is the only stroke I will swim - unless there is a shark chasing me in which case I don't give a rat's bum about water on my face)
- 5 x 30sec running on the spot
- 5 x 30 sec treading water and skulling
- 10 laps of breaststroke

Man, I could feel that my heart rate had definitely increased while I was doing those SO, if I don't get to walk today I won't feel guilty because I know that I have at least done something and pushed my heart rate up for a period during the day.

So, in future when I complain about how it is too hot to exercise please feel free to call me on it because, yes it may be too hot to run but it is never too hot to get into the pool and have a work out in there.

Have the best weekend and take care !

TFTD : When someone tells you 'No', it doesn't mean you can't do it, it just means you can't do it with them.

A New Year !

Today is a new day.  Today is a new year.  Today is the day that I sit down and make plans - not resolutions - plans, for what I want to achieve this year.

Top of the list - a healthy body (having my first soft drink for over a week is probably not the best way to start but sometimes you just have to give the water a break !!!!).  My plan is to eat healthily, exercise regularly and listen to my body when it talks to me.

I know that no dairy, no sugar, no wheat makes my body function better.

I know that exercising regularly makes my body feel more energised and work better.

I know that listening to my body when it talks to me makes me more aware of how I am treating it and if I am not treating it correctly, it lets me know (in no uncertain terms).

A friend if mine has told me about mindful eating and I plan on making that a habit when I am eating too - getting rid of the mindless eating that I sometimes find myself doing.

I started exercising on 27th December - slowly building up from walking to nearly running the whole way.  This morning I went for a run.  I have been walking / running with A and the dogs - we walk and then he will take both dogs and I will run up and down a few side roads, join up with them, walk a while and then go off running again.  I have been so pleased with how I was doing.  Yesterday morning I went for a (mostly all) run (only walked about 6 light posts) and felt good except for a little twinge in my right hamstring.  I got home and stretched really well and nursed it along (well enough I thought but now I know different !!!).  Drove down to Kyogle yesterday and it seemed to be OK.

This morning I woke up and decided to go for a run - walked to half way through the foot path to the Broadwater and started to run - not even 1km into my run and I could feel my hamstring.  I was so tempted to just suck it up and do a 5km run but then my head got the better of  me and I decided to just look back home.  So a very short run to start the year but, in all honesty, it is better than nothing - not because of the distance, but the mental side of actually getting out there and exercising.

I got home and stretched and am going to spend the rest of the day icing and resting it BECAUSE THIS YEAR I AM GOING TO RUN MORE than I did last year.  I am going to look after my body so that it can do what it is supposed to do - what it is meant to do - properly !!!!

And, because it is a Tuesday, I am linking in with Jess and her new team at #IBOT

(I cannot believe that tomorrow it will be a month since I last blogged - where has the time gone to ?)

TFTD :  When you are no longer able to change a situation, you are challenged and still perfectly capable of changing yourself !

Thankful Thursday

Today I am REALLY thankful for two people in my life ...................... my osteopath and my trainer (bet you thought I was going to say A and K didn't you ???)

While I am thankful for A and K, these past 10 days I have had occasion to visit my osteopath 4 times and my trainer zero times - none, zilch, not at all, nothing !!!  Why ?  Because of my stupid back injury from Warrior Dash.  Not that I am slating Warrior Dash here because I'm not - in fact we have all agreed that we will be doing it again next year.  I am lamenting the fact that maybe I should have been fitter before I tackled it and thus prevented my back injury !

The bottom line is that I have a back injury that I need to manage it properly to start with so that it doesn't hinder my training down the line. 

My osteo has been great - managing to see me and doing some dry needling, which, as painful as it is, certainly does aid and hasten the recovery process. 

My trainer has been great because he totally 'gets' my injury - he keeps telling me to rest up and give it a chance to recover so that I can get back to training sooner, even when I am chomping at the bit to get going NOW.  I feel very frustrated at not being able to do anything except get home, cook dinner, get the washing done, hop on the computer, play with my camera and crochet some more blankets.  I WANT TO TRAIN but I am learning (slowly it seems !!!) that if I go back to training too soon, it will mean that I will be out of action even longer.

So for the above two people, I am truly thankful - for their care of me and for the help that they have given, both physically and mentally, in helping me to understand that sooner isn't always better.

Now if my head would just accept this and buy into it 100% and stop playing mind games that go something along the lines of

"The longer you leave training, the more unfit you are getting."
"The longer you leave training, the less you are going to want to start again."
"The longer you leave training, the more you are going to battle to keep your weight under control."

then  I should be great !!

Today I am also thankful for going to my cupboard this morning and pulling out a pair of size 12 3/4 pants from Katies and having them fit me comfortably enough to wear them to work without feeling like I am going to get cut into two !!!

Linking in with We Heart Life for Thankful Thursday - so why not pop over and share some blog love around with everyone ?

Have the best week ever !

TFTD : Act as if it is impossoble to fail and it will be.

Going Well

Yesterday we had a great day - shopping - as a family !!!  We got into the car in the morning and K said "I feel just like a little girl again going shopping with my Mom and Dad" - we all laughed !!!  Told her she was welcome to drive and we would go with her but she was happy to be a passenger !

First stop was to Parklands where Lifeline was having a $2 sale.  We managed to get some clothes which was great.  It was a totally different experience for us - seeing people snatching armfuls of clothing and then off into a corner, going through and trying things on, then putting what wasn't suitable back on the tables and taking another armful.  Anyway, we got what we needed as well as a bag big enough to put clean clothes and towels in to change into after Warrior Dash.

Our next stop was the Lifeline shop where we managed to get 6 pairs of shoes (which is enough for 2 obstacle races !!!) plus two caps, one hat and a pair of sunnies for $50.  So, we are all set for Kilcoy - watch out, the M Family is on it's way on Friday after work !!!!

The rest of the day was giving my opinion on K's shopping - the bag she was getting for $20 from Meyers because she had to use a Meyer's voucher ($100) from Christmas the year before last.  The only problem was that we were at Robina and, while they had two in stock according to their computer, they didn't actually have any she could buy because they couldn't find them !!!!!  But, Pacific Fair had an actual bag on their floor so we went across there and got it.

She was also looking for a dress for her work Christmas party - they are having a Masquerade Evening and she needs a dress (and shoes and bag of course plus accessories !!!!) for the night.  We found a couple that she liked but they didn't have her size or she liked it but I didn't - so nothing finalised on the dress.  This has to be a 20yo logic -

K - Hey Mom - do you like these shoes ?
Me - Not really - when are you going to wear them ?
K - To the Christmas party
Me - But you don't even have a dress yet - how can you buy shoes when you don't have a dress
K - Oh yes - maybe I won't get them
Me - (to myself) - You think ????

We got home and A was going out with his brother to see someone who was down from Darwin for the Pan Pacific Masters Games so off he went.  This meant K and I were free to watch the Breaking Dawn Part 1 DVD to complete our Twilight recap that we started a little while ago.  He got home at about 4.30 and as soon as the movie was finished, he and I took the dogs for a walk.

This was a big thing for me (thanks to Tracey at Bliss Amongst Chaos and her 30/30 challenge for November) because normally if I have spent some time on the couch, I find it EXTREMELY difficult to get up and get exercising.  There was no way I could drop the ball on the 3rd day of the challenge !! I do believe I will get back to the point where I am in the habit of exercising - every - single - day - so even when I have a rest day I can just walk with A and the dogs.  He is wanting to exercise more and I am trying to help him do a little bit at a time.  Hopefully we will get there with him as well as myself !!!

This morning I had coffee/water with my dear friend from Colours of Sunset.  We were going to go for a walk but due to inclement weather down the coast we just met for a catch up and a drink.  I had such a great time.  I was a little late because, after a slight change in arrangements, I thought I would be able to get a short run in.  And I did.  With some great times.  6:12 for the 1st km, 6:15 for the 2nd km and then the last 1.3km I was a little stuffed and landed up averaging 6:21 for the whole run.  BUT, I am not knocking that - for me it is a good time even if the run was shorter than normal.  What I hadn't factored into my time allowed before I had to leave, was time to cool down AFTER my run !!!  So with ceiling fans going fall blast and me dashing under it when I could, I managed to get there about 5 mins late.  We had a great time anyway - well I know I did and I hope she did too !!!!! 

After that I had a couple of things to do - then came home, had some fritatta for lunch and spent a few hours on the couch catching up on blogs/FB/twitter (which all seem quite quiet this afternoon which is good !!!)

A just called to say he is finished work and on his way home which is great as I wasn't expecting him for at least another 2-3hrs !  K will be home from work just now and we will be making some more fritatta and breakfast muffins for us to have next week.

I hope you have all had a great weekend and that the up-coming week isn't too stressful !!!

Have a great day !

TFTD : You don't need a reason to help people.

A Great Place

Linking in with Stacey-Lee from GetOnWithItAlready - what place are you in right now ?  Not physically - but emotionally and mentally ?  Are you where you want to be ?  Are you close to where you want to be ? Or is where you want to be not even on the horizon for you ?

I didn't realise just how directionless (I think that is the word I am looking for) I was until I looked back over the past few months and realised that apart from a couple of events and a holiday to NZ, I really was just marking time.  No concrete goals to aim for.  Just marking time.

I was thinking about myself recently and realised that now I have direction - I have goals I want to achieve and I am following specific paths to achieve those goals.

1.  I committed to the LEANing Challenge with We Are Slimming
2.  I committed to Tracey's 30/30 challenge for November at Bliss Amongst Chaos
3.  I am involved in research for a book that involves all different areas of my life
4.  I committed to Kate's #operationMOVE for November at katesaysstuff (which I am doing in conjunction with point 2 above)

Looking now I see it is just 4 points - which to my way of thinking previously - was a bit piss-willy - really, all I could come up with was 4 ??????  But now I realise that maybe the smaller the number the more chance I have of achieving them - I tend to be an all or nothing kind of girl so often would tackle a million lots of things at once and then burn out without finishing most of them. 

I can't tell you how different I feel on the LEANing challenge  - no sugar, no wheat, no soft drinks, no dairy and I feel fantastic.  My energy levels are up and I feel so much clearer in myself (not sure that is an expression but that is how I feel !!!).  Yes, it takes a lot of preparation.  Yes, it means I have to be more organised.  Yes, I have to have a plan.  But, between K and I, we are doing it.

My newest 'sweet' - 70% cocoa chocolate

My child who is normally a grumble bum about most things that don't revolve around her - has become (for now anyway) a helpful, considerate, thoughtful young adult to have around the house.  She has been amazing - so much so on Wednesday night she came and sat next to me with her computer and said "Let's do a menu plan for next week so we can get the shopping done and we know what meals I'm cooking and which one's you are cooking." - as I said before whoever has swopped out my child, please don't swop her back anytime soon !!!!!

It looks like A might be getting a bit more interested in exercising and eating healthy food.  He has been for a run for me one night and was going to run last night but into our walk he was light-headed and didn't feel well so we walked home and I just went for a run by myself.  I hope that our good habits start to rub off on him - he used to be so fit and healthy.

Next weekend we have Warrior Dash at Kilcoy - I am hoping that it will be just as much fun as The Stampede. Tomorrow we are going op shopping to find clothes and shoes to wear because once you are finished, the bin is really the only place for your clothes / shoes !!

I am choosing to embrace the positives.  I will acknowledge, then let go of the negatives. This is the time for me to look after ME.  It is the time for me to accept that I may not get to be the weight that I think I should be but I can still have a healthy body - one that I nurture and nourish and treat with respect - not only with how I dress / look but how much I exercise and feed it.

I am off to have my next lot of water - have the BEST day that you can and I hope that your weekend brings you whatever it is that you need !

Also joining in for FYBF with Grace from With Some Grace - hop over and meet some other bloggers !

TFTD : Success is not a skill, it's a persistent attitude

A Good Week

This past week has been a good week for me, not a great week, but a good week nonetheless.

I changed my eating plan and, for the next 30 days, am following the LEANing Challenge with We Are Slimming.  This first week I lost 1.8kg which I am really happy with.  The few kgs that I picked up while on holiday in NZ in August seem to be stuck with glue and I have been really battling to get them off.  It looks like they might be coming off now.

This eating plan is very much like the 500cal/day that I did a few months ago except that you can have more than 500cal a day !  No dairy, no sugar, no carbs, no wheat, no soft drinks (which is killing me I have to be honest !!) BUT I am enjoying the food.  It just means that I need to be more organised and better prepared as it isn't that easy to grab food on the fly. (Bugger, just remembered I left the avo to go with my lunch at home !!!)  Oh well, at $2.50 per avo, it just means I can save a bit of money as I won't have to buy avos as soon as I thought I would !

The one downside of my week has been very little exercise - mainly because last week the weather was really cr*ppy and then on Friday when A and I were taking the dogs for a walk, I hurt my knee.  Iced it Friday night and spent a lot of Saturday on the couch icing it.  The good thing is that on Sunday it felt so much better that last night we went for a 45 min walk without it twingeing at all.

I am hoping to go for a short run tonight (weather permitting) before we fetch my folks to take them out to dinner for my Mom's 75th birthday tonight.

I would like to put a call out to whoever swopped my child, can you please not swop her back - ever - and I really do mean - ever !!!!  This child (young adult ?) that I have that is helpful, considerate, patient and  understanding is so different from the grumpy, cranky pants wearing child that normally resides in our home, and I would dearly love her to stay forever (or am I just living in cloud cuckoo land ?)  I guess I will just be grateful for however long she stays !

I have committed to a new challenge with Tracey from Bliss Amongst Chaos for the month of November - 30 mins exercise per day.  I know that all the people I have spoken to about training etc have advised me about how rest days are just as important as training days but I have figured that, if on a rest day I only just go for a walk with A and the dogs, it really isn't training, it is just getting out there and moving my legs and surely it won't hurt ?  So if you are up for it - join it - the more the merrier !

Linking in with the lovely Jess from dairyofasahm for #IBOT for the very last time on this blog - good luck with your rebrand Jess - I am sure that your readers will follow you !

TFTD : The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way out of the depths.  These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness and a deep loving concern.  Beautiful people do not just happen.

Decisions Need To Be Made

Things have been going along fairly much unaided by myself recently.  Life happens.  Exercise happens.  Eating happens.  Relaxing happens.  But I feel like I have had very little control over it - mainly because I chose to step back and just let it happen.  And I have enjoyed it.  I have enjoyed the pressure that I have taken off myself to always be doing / organising / accomplishing and just let myself be.

But now the time has come to stop and make some decisions for what I want to do moving forward.  What path do I want to follow ?  What do I want to achieve ?  How am I going to get there ?  How am I going to make sure that I keep a good balance in my life ?  (None of these are work related questions - they are all ME questions about my health and fitness.)

These are questions that I am contemplating this week because I now feel motivated enough to tackle them and I want to get on the path that is right for me.

{Insert photo of pathway in here if I had one and wasn't too scared to pick one off Google images !!}

So, as soon as I have made the decisions that I need to make, and once I have heard back on some challenges I have been looking into, I'll be ready to go.  Until then I will continue to run and exercise and eat the best that I can !!

Have the best Tuesday ever !

Linking in with Jess from Dairy of a SAHM for #IBOT

TFTD : Don't cry over the past it is gone. Don't stress about the future it hasn't arrived.  Just live in the present and make it beautiful.