Tuesday 30 April 2013

This Moment In Time

This morning I read Miss Cinders from Saturday Morning Ogre Mum and it really made me think about exactly where I am at this moment, so, while she has committed to make this a weekly post, I have said I will try for fortnightly, monthly or whenever I remember !!

Thinking about – whyI can't get the tax accounts to balance - they shouldn't be this hard.

Feeling - sad because I have had about 2-3 really good weeks where I have felt like I am coping so well.  Yesterday it felt like it all came crashing down on me.  I don't know if it was because we had such a great weekend or knowing that, sometime soon, A will be leaving for Townsville.

Watching - my weight on the scales daily and trying not to get despondent because the scales aren't  moving despite having cut out sugar, wheat and dairy.  I know it is due to the medication that I am taking that I am slowly weaning myself off, except for the next two weeks I have said I will continue with the same dosage as it looks like we may be having a 21st party for K after all and, with less than two weeks until D-Day, and A away (and, at this stage, we don't even know if he will be able to come home for her birthday) I don't think I can be cutting down without sending myself over the edge.

Making me happy - that the whole menopause thing seems to be coming under control.  Tackling one problem at a time was certainly the right way to go about it.

Listening to – I would be listening to meditation CD's if I had a CD player that worked

Reading – Bridget Jones' Diary - a light, entertaining read that I took away with me on the weekend but didn't get to finish while we were away

Eating – new paleo recipes that I have found that are so yummy - why did I not do this sooner ?

Following – GC Suns as they continue on their journey, hopefully with more wins this year.

Looking forward to - 13th May when the 21st will be over.

Outraged by - the deficite that the government is now declaring.

Planning for – a rushed 21st party.

Waiting for – to hear exactly when A is leaving for Townsville.  I am trying so hard to be flexible about this, and I know it isn't his fault, but honestly, they couldn't organise a p*ss up in a brewery if their lives depended on it.  He has already been up there last week for 3 days.  He came home because they had authorised his leave before they decided to send him up there.  He was supposed to go back yesterday - the ute which was supposed to be ready on Friday wasn't ready yesterday - it's supposed to be ready today - and, depending on what time it is ready (IF it is ready) will determine whether he leaves today or tomorrow, or if the ute isn't ready today, then who knows when he will leave.  In the meantime the work up there is piling up and he is fluffing around with stuff down here.  His boss is away until lunch time today (on a boat cruise) so isn't contactable to find out, if he goes to Townsville now, can we fly him home on 9th and then back on 13th - so the longer we have to wait on that answer the more expensive the tickets are getting.  I don't do patience very well and this is no exception !!!!!

And, because it is Tuesday, I'm linking in with Essentially Jess for #IBOT.

TFTD : One of the most freeing things we learn in life is that we don’t have to like everyone, everyone doesn’t have to like us, and that’s OK.

40 comments:

  1. I can't believe how disorganized A's company is. What a load of crap, to just have to be available to pick up and leave at a moment's notice! I'm sorry you are having a tough time at the moment. It seems one step forward 3 steps back sometimes, doesn't it? xo

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    1. I know - you would think that a company that big would be so on the ball - well they bloody aren't - they are just dreadful !!!
      You are so right - it definitely feels like 1 step forward and 3 back right now - I know it will be fine in the long run - just a bit trying at the moment !
      Thanks Lovely - have the best day !
      Me

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  2. What a great way to share a moment in time!! Especially when you are feeling so overwelmed by everything its great to separate each feeling and write it out!! I love it - I hope A's company gets their act together!

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    1. Thanks Yvette - me too !!!
      Sometimes when you write it out one at a time it doesn't seem so bad because on their own they are all manageable.
      Have a great day !
      Me

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  3. Oh you have a lot going on! Good luck with the 21st planning! Try not to get too down about your weight.

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    1. Thanks Bec - I am trying so hard to stay positive about my weight - I KNOW that it has to come off eventually, it is just a case of being patient !!!!
      Have a great week !
      Me

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  4. thats terrible, when a company can be that unorganised! and at the expense of their workers and their families. I hope its all sorted out soon!
    and goodluck with the 21st, Im sure it will be great! try not to stress yourself out too much! Your doing wonderfully xx

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    1. I know K - I don't understand how they make any money - they are a really big company and it is just unbelievable.
      Really appreciate your support and help - have the best week !
      Me

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  5. Argh! That's just crazy annoying! I'm annoyed no end atm because OgreDad has been asked to work more this week so it's putting off my plan to go to mys sistas for our sleep-over - which I am dreading ringing her and telling her :( Work sucks. Full stop.

    Did you see the yummy paleo cake I put on my SMOM FB wall for you? It looks soooo yummy!!!

    Take a deep breath and remember the birthday party WILL be okay! It can be done, and you're a pretty smart cookie and will pull it off!

    Hope today ends up being an awesome day hun xxx

    P.S. 21! Wow!
    P.S.S. Loving that you're joining me in doing this!

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    1. I have to agree MC - work sucks - now, when I win the BIG Lotto - I'm going to volunteer at places that need people instead of working for the money !
      NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I didn't - I must have a look for your FB page - will try to do that tonight after client has left.
      I know - how did I land up having a daughter who is nearly 21 ??????
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  6. Tax... *shudder*. Guess what I am surrounded by now at the dining table. Good luck for the 21st - what a special night, and I hope A's work situation doesn't get in the way of you having a good time. x

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    1. Thansk R - me too !!!!!
      Tax sucks as far as I am concerned - good luck with clearing your diningroom table soon.
      Have a great week !
      Me

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  7. Hang in there lovely and remember to be kind to yourself when you feel it crashing. Not everything can be controlled and sometimes that is a good thing. Maybe you can get some meditation app on you phone to listen to till you get a cd player. Sending you lots of fairy wishes and butterfly kisses lovely lady

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    1. Great point there - will have to see if I can find an app that I can use - thanks for that !
      I am trying so hard to be kind to myself but am finding that sometimes I worry I am being too kind and not doing what I should !!!!
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  8. I have been struggling of late too. Overwhelmed, not feeling quite right, anxiety. Yours is made all the worse by a disorganised company.
    On the bright side, I am glad the menopause is getting under control and you are enjoying Paleo recipes. I really do need to look into this more.
    Becc @ Take Charge Now

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    1. Thanks Becc. I hope that you feel better soon or else get some help. A finally left yesterday at about 2pm - he should get to Townsville tomorrow morning sometime.
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  9. I'm glad the menopause is easing. One thing at a time right? And in the meantime, you're eating really well! I have to take heart in this too. I'm doing all the right things and the scales won't budge while I'm medication. But without the medication I wouldn't be doing all the right things which will eventually set me up to succeed. Remember that for yourself. I hope you can get some help for the 21st - don't stress out!

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    1. Thanks L - I am trying my best not to stress. REmembered at the dentist today that I need to order a cake for the party as well !!!!!
      That is so true - I am working on setting myself up to succeed - very very true !
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  10. Step away from those scales!! Your success in your lifestyle change should not be measured by those darn things! Sounds like the stress is getting you down, can you ask someone to help with the organising? x

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    1. I know I shouldn't have the scales but there is a part of me that knows that if I weigh in every day I hold myself so much more accountable - sad but true !
      K and I are going to sit down tonight and make a list of everything that needs to be organised / bought / tidied up and then I'll work from there. My folks are really keen to help us so will be calling on them to do stuff (which I don't normally do) and I may even ask SIL to help as she did offer over the weekend.
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  11. I hope I can follow your advice to take one thing at a time. Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate at the moment too. Very hard not to stress, especially when there are things out of our control. Good luck with the party planning & throw those scales away xx

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    1. If I can just make it through to Mother's Day (K's birthday), I'll be fine !!!! The good thing is with the way time is flying, before I know it, it will be over !!
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  12. Oh Crap L that sucks! I had to hear that things have gone backwards, if it makes you feel any better than I've taken about two years backwards, but that's another whole story (and blog) Hang in there and remember you are only as good as the person you are feeling - hee hee! Em xx

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    1. LOL thanks Emily - probably wouldn't be that funny if he was at least home !!!!
      Have a great day !
      Me

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  13. Sending you positive vibes to get through the next few weeks - hang in there and make sure you look after yourself xx

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    1. Thanks Kirsty - I am certainly going to do my best to not only get through the next 10 days but ENJOY them !!
      Have a great week !
      Me

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  14. Lots on your plate at the moment, which must be difficult for you! And big parties are always a stress to organise.
    Hope things settle down soon xxx

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    1. Well -only 10 days to go and then it will all be over !!!! I am positive I can make it.
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  15. Oh hun, so much going on and no warning! I hope you manage to take care of yourself with all that you are doing. You have lots of patience, good luck with the party I hope its lots of fun !! xx

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    1. Thanks Leigh. Luckily I really only have to worry about looking after myself as K is more than self sufficient and A isn't there !!!!
      It will be over before I can even think about it I'm sure - will just do the best I can.
      Have a great day !
      Me

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  16. Make sure you get some time to look after you, though where you will fit that in, have no idea with such a busy few weeks.... Take Care :)

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    1. Thanks Jackie - will make sure there is some 'me' time in between everything else that needs to be done !!
      Have the best week and good luck with all your assignments !
      Me

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  17. Cutting out wheat, dairy and sugar is no picnic, is it? I should probably look up paleo recipes, too, thanks for the tip. Love your thought for the day. So true. #teamIBOT

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    1. Funnily enough it hasn't been as hard as I thought. I did have a coke last week (I think it was) and last night I had some jelly tots that my folks brought back from South Africa - I felt so sick afterwards the other packets are there for the family to have when they want them !!!
      Thanks for stopping by ! Have a great week !
      Me

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  18. Ouf, you have a few things going on at the moment... As you said, the best way is to tackle one problem at the time. And, I agree with what Stacey-Lee said: step away from the scale. I know easier said than done but you are eating well so I'm sure you will see results.

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    1. Thanks Rita - I know that I will definitely see the results when I stop the medication - it just takes time to wean myself off of it. Having said that I have stopped the weaning process for the next two weeks because I didn't think I would cope without the help !!!!
      Have the best day !
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  19. Oh L, so much going on! I hope all the party planning goes well, and you can enjoy K's 21st, and also that A's company gets its' act together! It's true about big companies, John's work is the same.
    As for your weight, you're doing the right stuff, and I love to hear that you're enjoying the Paleo food.
    I love this idea, and might just have to join in, when I can.
    Lisa xx

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    1. I am sure that on the night it will be all fine. Luckily A has a dental appointment so we are flying him home on Wednesday night so he will have two (three if you could Saturday) days at home to tidy up / move things around / do any last minute things.
      I just cannot believe that a company so big can be so disorganised - I have no idea how they make any money !!!!
      The more who join in the merrier although I did 'steal' the idea from Miss Cinders who 'got' the idea from some other bloggers - it's great to share !
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  20. Good luck with the party, hope you get to enjoy it :-)

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    1. I am sure I will thanks Jen !!! We are flying A back on Wednesday night so he will have a couple of days at home to move stuff/ tidy up outside etc which will make a huge difference to what I have to do in the lead up to the party.
      Have the best day !
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