I'm sorry that I take my absolutely first class wonderful husband for granted on so many occasions.
I'm sorry that I didn't make myself available more for my daughter while she was growing up - now that she is nearly 20 I have realised just how much of her growing up I missed because I felt like I owed the company I worked for more than I owed her.
I'm sorry for not being a better daughter to my parents - for not doing more for them and making myself available for them.
I'm sorry that I never lived by myself before I got married - although sometimes I wonder if I could have - even so, I still regret not doing it to see if I could !
I'm sorry that I put more importance on buying our home rather than travelling overseas - I would have liked to have done more travelling by this time in my life.
I'm sorry that my brother and I have had a falling out and I cannot bring myself to put it all behind me. It really doesn't matter if I was right or not but I just can't do it.
I'm sorry that my Dad is sick again - I am not ready for him to die yet.
I am not sorry that I am part of an amazing family who, even though I feel I have fallen far short of being the best wife and mom, love me unconditionally and accept me as I am and for who I am.
that last sentence - makes it all wholly completely worth it :)
ReplyDeleteWe all have regrets and sadness, the trick is to not let them beat you. LOVED your last sentence.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had lived alone too. Now with three kids I would settle for being able to pee alone!
ReplyDeleteI wish I had lived alone too.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you're sorry about not being there more for your daughter when she was growing up ... even you feeling that now is powerful, you know?
Bloody great post. Thank you for linking up. XX
Thanks everyone. LOL Nicole - I only have one child but I too would settle for being able to pee alone. What I do get to do is bath alone - with the door closed - and, unless the house is burning down - nobody is allowed to interrupt my bath time - doesn't happen often so I thoroughly enjoy it when it does !!
ReplyDeleteThanks Eden - the great thing is that now she is nearly 20 and Al is having to work away from home heaps, we are getting to spend so much time together and I'm really enjoying it. I am loving it because I know that sometime in the future she is going to be off doing her own thing - I treasure every minute now.
ReplyDeleteThe one about your daughter really grabbed me. I was so career oriented for so long, all with the idea that it would amount to something good for my family. When I realized it was for naught, I cut my losses. She understands now but ,oh, it was hard back then.
ReplyDeleteLovely. It's all worth it in the end. x
ReplyDeleteLovely post, and I relate to a lot of it! Living alone, travelling instead of settling.. I hope the second one will find me when I'm old and grey.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had lived alone too, given myself a chance to just be.
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What a great post! That is so honest of you. It sounds like you have a wonderful family. Have a great weekend. xx
ReplyDeleteWell written, I share the Brother issues too!
ReplyDeleteIt's great that you are making up for lost time with K, I am sure she loves it as much as you do and I am pretty sure that she understands why you were away when she was younger.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about your brother and I do know where you are coming from. I have an older sister that 3 of my kids don't even know about.
So glad to be back and being able to read your blog, I have missed it so much xx
You are so brave writing this! Mind you if i had a list of sorries, I'm sure it would be 10 x longer than this!!! Have you started your restrictive dieting yet? How is it going?
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That last line was just beautiful...the rest, well, life just can be really hard hey? x
ReplyDeleteJen, you have been so honest with yourself...and I love that you know what you're not sorry for. x
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about your dad, I have been there and you will never be ready for him to die. Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses
ReplyDeleteLove this post, especially the bits about your dad...you are never ready and even when they gone (like my dad) you still wish they weren't !
ReplyDeleteAnd the..love me unconditionally and accept me as I am and for who I am...that is just so...absolute.
I hear you on the living alone thing. I feel that way too. Sorry your dad is sick but happy you have a loving family to be a part of.
ReplyDeleteYou are so brave to write this. I am yet to face my "sorrys". Too confronting. But well done for writing them!
ReplyDeleteThank goodness for family! It sounds like you have an awesome one, too!
ReplyDeleteI also wish I had lived alone before getting married...or just been on my own a little bit. :( Glad I have my family by my side now, though. I wouldn't change that for anything in the world.
I love this post for the honesty that just glows. But I am truly sorry about your Dad Hun. Big hugs to you xoxo
ReplyDeleteI love this post for the honesty that just glows. But I am truly sorry about your Dad Hun. Big hugs to you xoxo
ReplyDeleteHow is your dad? I hope everything is going well for you all.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you xxxx
what a wonderful post. i made a list a few years ago. still working on it. who really has a list completely cleared off? be gentle on yourself.
ReplyDeleteas far as the issue with your brother. i went through a couple bad years with my sister. we are all better now, thankfully.
hard feelings with family can be so complicated and heart breaking. sending you healing wishes :)
xo tracie