I Got Out Walking !

Yesterday I got home from work and the last thing I felt like doing was going for a walk but it was a new week and I knew that if I didn’t get changed and get out there, it would be another week before I did as the excuses would just keep coming for the rest of this week.  So, I got home, got changed and got out there.

 

I wore my walking shoes (as opposed to my running shoes with the tracker thingie in them) and I didn’t wear my Nike watch with the tracker thingie in it because I didn’t think I would run – at all – but once I was warmed up from walking I thought to myself “I can run to that lamp post” – and I did – and then I ran to the next lamp post and before I knew it I was running for half the road and walking half the road.  And it felt good.  It felt good to be doing something that I knew was good for me, that I didn’t want to do but that I got out and did anyway.  I did feel a twinge in my right calf when I was nearing home so sat with it on ice for the evening and it seems to be fine this morning.  As I was only expecting to walk, I hadn’t stretched, and I think that probably didn’t help when I started to run.

This morning my TFTD was “Do the thing you fear, and the death of fear is certain” and that was so apt for me last night – and for previous weeks – I haven’t got out there to run because I have been scared that my times would be too bad compared to what they were like when I stopped running.  I didn’t want to feel like a failure if I got out there and found that I couldn’t run – even for one lamp post.  I didn’t want to feel like a failure if I got out there and there found that I couldn’t run - at all.  That fear was all for nothing because, after not running for 5 or 6 weeks, I could still run and I had put it off for so long because I was scared of failing.  Now I have wasted those 5-6 weeks when I could have been running because I was too scared to try BUT the good thing is that I have tried and I have conquered that fear.  So, I have diarised to go running 3 nights per week, which, together with our training 2 nights per week, means that I will be exercising 5 nights a week and if I feel like doing something on the weekend, I will have extra exercise for that week.  I do believe that if I can get into this habit, and continue to make good food choices, I will get to goal.  I need to be patient and not expect to lose 15kgs in 3 weeks – as much as I would love to lose it that quickly, I know that I won’t.  My goal is to lose 500g per week with maybe a bit more in some weeks.  If I can accomplish this, I will get to my goal of 65kg in 34 weeks – enough time for me to try to lose a few more kilos before we go on holiday.

Have the best Tuesday ever !

JOURNEY WITHIN

The answers to all your questions lie within you.

Spend some time with yourself and listen to

the wisdom of your intuition.

You are your own guide and master.

From Universal Symbols by Ken Dowling