Tuesday, 16 April 2013

Is This It .............. For Now ?

On Friday I finally got a phone call from the naturopath at Mrs Flannery's to say that the adrenal support could be taken in conjunction with the anti-depressant I am on.  So I stopped off and picked them up and started to take them.  I also picked up the herbal tablets that my folks brought back from South Africa that helped my sister when she was going through menopause and started taking those.

I had lost 0.9kg between Tuesday and Saturday - and that was good - it was the start of the new lifestyle and there was some indication that it was doing what it was supposed to do (to a certain extent) - losing weight as well as living a healthier lifestyle.  This morning I was up 0.4kg - totally don't understand that as I have stuck 100% to the no wheat, no dairy, no sugar eating plan - but, that is OK - I am sure that in the end the weight will move and, while this is about losing weight, it is mainly about getting my body as healthy as I can, as I get older.

I can't say I feel any better yet - I can't say that I am less tired - I can't say that I feel any different to how I felt last week, but I have to believe that if I continue to feed my body with good quality, healthy food, I have to see the results as some point in the future.

Now - the crux of this post - we had some unexpected free time when we got home from work last night and A had suggested earlier in the day that we go for a walk.  I certainly didn't feel up to walking anywhere other than to my bedroom but I got home and felt bad about not doing anything for so long, so agreed we would go for a walk BUT only as far as BIL and then back.  We got changed and left.  Never before has A walked faster than me.  Never before has A had to slow down so I could catch up to him.  Never before have I walked 1.4km and felt so buggered.  Never before have I walked 1.4km and got home, curled up on the couch and slept for a couple of hours.  So my question is this - is this it for me ?  Is this my exercise regime totally out the window now ?  Is this a short term set back ?  Is this me being too hard on myself and not making allowances for the adrenal fatigue / hypoglycemia ?  Is this me making excuses for why I am not exercising ? 

I was supposed to do the 5km Color Run on Sunday which was cancelled due to the cr*ppy weather on Saturday - I wasn't expecting to run the 5km but after my pathetic attempt at a walk last night, I very much doubt I would have even made the 5km on Sunday. 

Is this what it has come down to for me, for now ?  Battling to walk 1.4km after being able to run (albeit slower than I would have liked but given the situation not much I could do about it) 10km not even a month ago ? 

Is this where I have to work really hard on being kind to myself and just let go with whatever is happening until I can get back some control over how I feel and what I can accomplish ?

What do you think ?

And, because it is Tuesday it is time to link up with Essentially Jess for #IBOT.

TFTD :  A bad attitude is like a flat tyre, you can't go anywhere until you change it.

Posted by Me at 15:36
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28 comments:

  1. Lyndal16 April 2013 at 15:50

    I think, my dear, you need to give yourself some grace and space to recalibrate. There are some major things that you are going through, and you are doing a marvelous job of managing and navigating through all the challenges and changes you are facing. Keep hanging in there - one step at a time. If there is one thing that is for sure you are a trooper, and you will come out stronger than ever xxx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 10:59

      Thansk so much Lyndal - some days I feel like it will all be fine and others I feel so over whelmed - as you say, one step at a time.
      Have the best week !
      Me

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  2. Aroha @ Colours of Sunset16 April 2013 at 16:05

    I don't know what this is, lovely. But I know it's not merely "excuses". There's only so much within our control, and you have certainly done everything in your power to figure out why you feel like this and to conquer it as best you can. Don't give up on that, don't set time frames, you just have to ride this rollercoaster, I think :( I wish I had a magical wand to wave. I think you'll have to give the new diet time, too. It can take weeks for these things to "kick in". Sending you heaps of love xox

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:06

      I think you are right with not setting any time frames - I need to be happy just taking each day as it comes and doing what I can when I can - it's just so hard when there is so much that I want to do :(
      I hope that you are feeling much better today - enjoy the rest of your week !
      Me

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  3. Meagan16 April 2013 at 17:07

    Lyndal used the best line - GRACE and SPACE!
    I've had it said at me and I can only agree with it. for you and I.

    You are going through one of the biggest things you will go through. You are doing all the right things. Your body is just readjusting to the changes and now to the drugs and the lifestyle food intake change.

    I am so sure the results will come. You ahve the answers, you just need your body to catch up to the change too.

    X

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:07

      Thanks Meagan - you are right - I need to just be patient !!!!
      Have the best week !
      Me

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  4. Lisa@RandomActsOfZen16 April 2013 at 17:26

    Oh L, please be kind to yourself, you totally deserve it, and you're the only one who can truly do it. This is a major shift you're working through, and I think time will be part of the healing process. Thank you for your generosity in sharing this journey.
    Thank you so much for your patience, I haven't forgotten you, and promise it will be worth it. xxx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:09

      You are so right Lisa - I am the one that has to be kind to me and accept just where I am right now even if it isn't where I want to be.
      I know that you have heaps on your plate right now - don't worry - when you get to them, will be fine - truly. My project is an on-going project so there is no end date.
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  5. Anonymous16 April 2013 at 18:16

    Be kind to yourself sunshine- your strength is beyond amazing xx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:09

      Thank you so much !
      Have a great day !
      Me

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  6. carmen16 April 2013 at 19:05

    I think you are amazing. Sometimes it's difficult to listen to our bodies when they just want us to slow down for a little while.
    Yes, I get this. I'm impatient and used to being active. For now, I have to wait... and that is the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn.
    Love and thoughts to you. You WILL get there. xxXOoo

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:18

      You are right - it is about being patient and unfortunately that is a very hard lesson for me to learn !!
      I hope that your recovery is going well and that you will be back to your normal self soon !
      Take care and look after yourself !
      Me

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  7. Unknown16 April 2013 at 20:42

    Give it time xxxx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:19

      I am trying so hard with being patient - not an easy thing for me to do !!
      Have the best week !
      Me

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  8. Anonymous16 April 2013 at 21:01

    Shit that doesn't sound right, but you would know. Go with your instincts, they are the best markers to your health. SHIT SHIT SHIT though, well that is what I'd be thinking. Although 'they' do say slow and steady wins the race! Em xx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:19

      LOL right now I think I am slow - not sure about steady - but I certainly don't think I am going to win any races anywhere !!!!! Actually, the next event I enter I will be happy if I can finish.
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  9. Rhianna 16 April 2013 at 21:55

    Yes that's right just like Em said, slow and steady wins the race. Listen to what your body is telling you. It is ok to rest, to heal and grow when you need to. Sending lots of fairy wishes and butterfly kisses your way

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:20

      Thank you for your kind thoughts Rhianna - have the best week !
      Me

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  10. Anonymous16 April 2013 at 21:59

    It sounds like your body is telling you what it needs for the moment and that is REST while it adjusts to all the changes you've made in your diet. Even though they are positive changes it will sill take all your systems time to get rid of anything they've been holding on to.

    I'd give yourself a week or even two and try that walk again. Hope you're back up to speed soon. Rach :)

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:21

      You are right - A said a similar thing to me last night - I have made huge changes to my food intake and my body is probably wondering what on earth I am doing to it and it's gone into panic mode. Hopefully after a few weeks things will settle down and I will feel better.
      Have the best week !
      Me

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  11. Unknown16 April 2013 at 22:26

    Time to rest now! Slow down while your body is telling you to. It wont be forever xx

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    1. Me17 April 2013 at 11:22

      Thank you Annaleis - I know I need to listen to my body and sometimes I do get it right but then other times I get so frustrated and I give it a big sucky 'up yours' - which generally doesn't work out well for me as it means that I land up feeling worse !!!
      HAve a great day !
      Me

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  12. Jaxx17 April 2013 at 11:36

    Let your body dictate your exercise, maybe right now you just need to rest a bit, then maybe in a couple of weeks, try the walk again.... it will come back :)

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    1. Me19 April 2013 at 09:23

      Thanks Jackie - I think that is the best thing I can do. Try not to push it but oh so frustrating and hard !!
      Have the best weekend !
      Me

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  13. Anonymous17 April 2013 at 20:22

    I don't know much about these things. But I know for myself my fitness comes in ebbs and flows. Sometimes I am powering, and sometimes I am lathargic. Maybe there's a hormonal component? I am not sure. Give yourself the rest you need and listen to your body. Zanni xx

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    1. Me19 April 2013 at 09:23

      You are right - it does ebb and flow. I guess I am going to have to call on that patience that I battle with so much !!!
      Have the best day !
      Me

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  14. The Chapters Within19 April 2013 at 15:20

    I think you need to cut yourself some slack. Be kind to you, let things settle and see how things go for a bit xx

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  15. EssentiallyJess20 April 2013 at 12:05

    I can understand that question, and would no doubt be asking it myself. It is terribly frustrating when you're a very active person and you can't be that any more. I had to go on bed rest with the last baby, and when I was finally allowed to move again, a fifty metre walk had me exhausted!!! It tok ages to get my fitness back up again.
    Be kind to yourself, hopefully things will improve for you soon. xxx

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